Why write this log?
Curiosity | Expression | Vulnerability | Connection

"I am losing precious days, I am degenerating into a machine for making money, I am learning nothing in this trivial world of men. I must get into the mountains to learn the news." _Muir

This brings me to question how different the cogs of capitalism really are. Within the machine that is capitalism, I have been lucky to work for a revolutionary force. A small team of jedis on a mission to alter history. Maybe a line in the pages of history will look a little different, our socio-enviro forward force spinning counter the established destruction. A workday of hacking optimization, selling, LCD screens, technical efficiency. A work week. A year. A lifetime. 

"... one informs the other. I see the adventure as the tool which allows me to remain centred amidst my work in the world. In that way, it doesn’t as much feel like an escape but a critical component to my success as a birth keeper and activist, as well as a friend and lover. It’s the way I feed myself. I need months alone out there in this world of opportunity so I can come back and not feel trapped by the back sweat I need to put in so that I can be the instrument of change I want to be."
_Eliana Schiffer

A log broke my leg.
A phone call from nature.
She wants me back, and I want it too.
Hard, heavy, long nature.
We reunite.

"The very survival of the human race depends on our ability to surround ourselves with people who believe what we believe. Something remarkable happens. Trust emerges."_Simon Sinek
"You cannot form trust through the internet."

Shareholder Value
The Experiment Must Go On
Just Following Orders

Amazon | Life enriched cheapened by efficiency and convenience.
Tinder | The unsatiable human crave for mirror neurons.

My life is a movie.
You can't make this up.
The scenes.
The characters.

"My name is Gideon Black
I came to get my life back
But my life here came to no good
It ended in the hangman's hood

Here lies old Jack Snow
A meal for the for the peckin crow

My name is Elias Cole
I was tried by a drunken mob
For a shooting in the Jackal Saloon
I went swinging by the light of the moon"

Werewolves devour the night.
Ashwa filled with soul.

Here are my personal favourites from Hangtown + some from the nearby journey.


"How much of the internet was influenced by the perspective of nineteen-year-old well-off white boys?"

The first winds of autumn. Crews of fluttering leaves patrol the streets. The haunted air. The barometric pressure before El NiƱo gets ramped.

Facebook =  Fully optimized growth haking aka "the constant pursuit of scale."

What is motivation anyways? I'll prove you. I need me to do. Lettuce accomplish!

I brewed up a special batch of the moment
The way of now, too passive for such saucy souls
Destruction | Dark emotion
Sold on a tease

October 5
"The weight of the situation is settling. This is about to be a long few months."

Transportation of heart

I have this theory running that vandwellers are inherently philosophers.
Informed by "philosopher" defined as "anyone who questions how to live."
Yvon Chouinard also is a philospher, and Patagonia is a philosophy.
"Beneath all forms of denial is the hope that someone else will figure it out or that technology will save humankind in the nick of time." _Chouinard

"To expect corporations to do anything other than amass wealth is to ignore our culture's entire history, current practices, current power structure, and system of rewards. Limited Liability Corporations are institutions created explicitly to separate humans from the effects of their actions - making them, by definition, inhuman and inhumane." _Derrick Jenson
My inner futurist is piqued by capitalism x AI.

Its ok to not be ok.

"It's easier to sell promise than product." _Ronny Bell

Success: designer children in designer schools, big house in the right hood, BMW(s), a housemaid for the big house.

Health, gypsies, artists, community.

I have this theory that instagram has successfully tricked the content creator into subtle humility.

Stability has become a problem on my left foot, which I cannot stand on.

Thanks very much to Zac who brought me chanterelles when I broke my leg.

Proper minimalism requires sufficient wealth in cash and ability/knowledge to not be over-attached to things. Maybe the truth lies in minimalizing despite that prerequisite | Monk.

I started reading Essentialism

Space | Listening | Play | Sleep | Selecting
The rest is noise.

Also, The Pearl by Steinbeck. Highly recommend, like every Steinbeck.

"He had said, " I am a man," and that meant certain things to Juana. It meant he was half insane and half god. It meant that Kino would drive his strength against a mountain and plunge his strength against the sea. Juana, in her woman's soul, knew the mountain would stand while the man broke himself; that the sea would surge while the man drowned in it. And yet it was this thing that made him a man, half insane and half god, and Juana had need of a man: she could not live without a man. Although she might be puzzled by the differences between man and woman, she knew them and accepted them and needed them. Of course, she would follow him, there was no question of that. Sometimes the quality of woman, the reason, the caution, the sense of preservation, could cut through Kino's manness and save them all." _Steinbeck

Duality. I contain Kino and Juana. An essence of the masculine and the feminine so poetic. I think we live in a gender fluid future in which we (the curious and adaptable) will each drown in an ocean and also reason and preserve. Each life choice and action can swing wildly between the feminine and masculine. Understanding is a tool.

I suspect the future will provide more and more enjoyable ways to experience life.
faster e-bikes
larger and more delightful screens
better drugs.
The citizens will accept this offering and come to expect higher thrills from human interaction than possible. Our tribal humanity will both dominate and rebel against this addiction ... unless ai cuts through that too. We live in intriguing times. The majority of western civilization might already be passed the crux. Doomed to robotic bliss.

I love the sun & the moon
the wind in the storm
the soft snow and wind violence
a gentle downpour and a proper one

Equinox | a time for harvest and removal, appreciation and setting sights.

The van has provided delicious fruit. Micro-community on wheels. So much abundance. Including a solid harvest of inspiration for what it might provide moving forward.
I have learned to let go of sunk-cost projects, but it's hard. Learning to de-commit.
Both harvesting and sight-setting in the realm of healthy inter-dependant romantic relations.

I got to reading the 8 core design abilities preached at Stanford's D-School by Carissa Carter
I "a designer."
Navigate Ambiguity | "the ability to recognize and stew in the discomfort of not knowing, and then come up with tactics to emerge."
Rapidly Experiment
Move Between Concrete and Abstract | "abstracting out for meaning, goals, and principles, as well as zooming in to define details and features."
Build & Craft Intentionally
Communicate Deliberately

"There is no way to precisely know how to make someone happy."
"What actually constitutes suffering or happiness is unclear."
"Therefore Kant argued, the only way to improve the world is improving ourselves. This is because the only thing we can experience with any certainty is ourselves."
"'Self-improvement' is the ability to adhere to the categorical imperative"
"Self-love and self-care, therefore, are not something you learn about or practice. They are something you are ethically called to cultivate within yourself. Even if they are all you have left."
_Mark Manson on Kant

"Buildings are never finished. They require constant maintenance and occupation to function well." _Dr Lucas

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